Esok Pulang!

hurm..
x tau cane nak explain benda neyh.
memang macam malas jew nak tinggalkan kl neyh.
tapi entah la.
sejak kebelakangan ni aku rasa.
ganu pown ade faedah dia ahhaa!
yang penting kat ganu aku rasa aman sket dari kl nie.
kl huru hara jew aku rasa haha!

What a MOTHERFUCKER!

1st of fuck!
kimak sape yang delete myspace gf aku.
ko memang pukimak.
x ade keje lain ke nak buat?
kalau da x ade keje ko gi jobo mak ko la hanjeng.
ko jangan sampai aku gegar umah ko ngan mak bapak ko aku pijak.
ko nak aku buat mak bapak ko sujud kat kaki aku ko bagitau.
daripada ko jadi anak haram.

Falling Up - Falling For Love

You are my one true love
You are the voice that is so sweet
In everything I do, you bring the best out of me
You are my wings to fly
You are the wind beneath them
I miss you every night, when I close my eyes
You put your feelings down
You stopped your tears you brought me love
You held to my heart
You held with hope to have me near
Sometimes I close my eyes
Sometimes I let my hunger rise
I think of all you are, you are the love of my life

All of my dreams and my passions
Are in your hands

You reached me in my need
Your rhythm flows under my skin
I need you desperately,
A sweet healing that will begin
You are my one true love
You are the voice that is so sweet
In everything I do, you bring the best out of me
My everything is you
The very motions that I move
And everything with richness
The richness of the peace you bring

Always, always you are with me
You are the love of my life
He comes to find you on your knees

Until The End Of Time - Tupac

Perhaps I was addicted to the dark side
Somewhere inside my childhood I missed my heart die
And even though we both came from the same places
The money and the fame made us all change places
How could it be through the misery that came to pass
The hard times make a true friend afraid to ask, for currency
But you could run to me when you need me, I'll never leave
I just needed someone to believe in, as you can see
It's a small thing through and true
What could I do? Real homies help ya get through,
And coming new, he'd do the same thing if he could
Cause in the hood true homies make you feel good
And half the time we be acting up call the cops
Bringing the cease to the peace that was on my block
It never stop, when my mama ask me will I change
I tell her yeah, but it's clear I'll always be the same
Until the end of time


So take, these broken wings
I need your hands to come and heal me once again
(Until the end of time)
So I can fly away, until the end of time
Until the end of time
Until the end of time


Please Lord forgive me for my life of sin
My hard stare seem to scare all my sister's kids
So you know I don't hang around the house much
This all night money making got me outta touch, shit
Ain't flashed a smile in a long while
An unexpected birth worst of the ghetto child
My attitude got me walking solo
Ride out alone in my low-low
Watching the whole world move in slow-mo
For quiet times disappear listen to the ocean
Smoking Ports think my thoughts
Then it's back to coasting
Who can I trust in this cold world
My phony homey had a baby by my own girl
But I ain't trippin I'm a player I ain't sweating him
I sexed his sister, had her mo' good like a Mexican
His next of kin, No remorse it was meant to happen
Besides rapping the only thing I did good was scrapping
Until the end of time




Now who's to say if I was right or wrong?
To live my life as an outlaw all along
Remain strong in this planet full of player haters
They conversate but Death Row full of demonstrators
And in the end drinking Hennessey made all my enemies envy me
So cold when I flow eliminating easily
Fall to their knees, they plead for their right to breath
While beggin me to keep the peace (ha ha)
Well I can see close into achieve
In times of danger don't freeze time to be a g
Follow my lead I supply everything you need
An ounce of game and the training to make a g
Remember me, as an outcast outlaw
Another album out that's what I'm about, more
Gettin raw till the day I see my casket
Buried as a g while the whole world remembers me
Until the end of time



If an angel comes down
And takes me away
The memories of me
And my songs
Will always stay
Till they can find
(Until The End of Time)
Until the end of time
Till the end of time

kisah lama 22/05/09

aku bangun tido suddenly ada org call 'jaz,bgn gi siap kitorang otw gi umah u' so whathefish? oh thats my gf with her friends LOLX. aku pown tetibe chargas la bangun gi siap. betol jew aku abes mandi ada org call lagi skali.rupenye dorang da ade kat depan umah aku haha! aku pown ape lagi,mewangikan diri then jumpa dorang.

aku, gfku, yuyu si nenek dan dib si gemok pergi chill kat mapley haha! ngan selamba nye aku gi minum nes ais x gi solat jumaat haha! lepak punya lepak. si dib nak gi jumpa payid so aku pown gi la ikot dorang gi tempat payed kerja.

kol 2 sampai,tapi payed abis kerja kol 5. wtf! bapak lama dol. aku ley wat roti mentega da kat sini haha! then kitorang ambek keputusan tok tinggalkan payed then gi minum pastuh gi JJ balakong. yuyu ngan gf aku beli baju manakala aku pown melepak kat luar smoking then terjumpa apit ngan botak. abes merokok aku masuk jumpa dorang pusing2 then jam nak kol 5 da. kitorang gerak amek payed kat umah. da selesai amek si gemok 2 kitorang gi ceria box kajang tok melalak hahaha! lagu yang aku nyanyi time tu sume tok gf aku, tappi aku rasa dorang x pasan kot n perlu ke aku gtau haha!aku nye mood agak spoil mula2 sebab masa tgh nyanyi 1st song ade si bangsat call gf aku n text dia byk2.

da abes nyanyi kitorang plan nak hisap shisha,tapi x jadi plak la kan sebab kl neyh mana ade shisha nak cari siang2 alam nie haha! pastuh kami ke jj balakong semula tok tgok night at the museum 2.agak layan gak la cite neyh,lagipown ni 1st time aku tgok mv ngan gf aku (yang kat ganu x dikira mv) haha!

sumenye gembira tok aku until nak pulang baru ade rasa hiba sket. si pukimak 2 kol lg n gf aku pown angkat kol. aku diam jew n speechless, tapi lepas 2 aku call ex aku jugak depan dia. kenapa dia boleh aku xley?tu jew yang kat dalam pale otak aku arituh. then aku da angin aku suh dia pilih tapi dia diam. lagi la aku jam, atleast def ur self la sayang. aku nye bengang aku kol pukimak 2. si bangsat 2 pown ley wat pangai cam adik2 darjah 2. aku rasa dia x cukup hisap tetek mak dia kot sebab mak dia pelacur slalu kena tala ngan anjing. yang aku pening nye gf aku x nak kasi num pukimak 2 mula2 huhu! aku bertambah pening.

Y ME? like usually,aku mesti salahkan diri sendiri. gf aku x pandang aku sikit pown sampai aku da kat umah, amat kecil hati jugaklah kalau org kite sayang wat macam 2 kan. nak nanges? mungkin la, tapi aku try to avoid dengan merokok. aku da la x reti pujuk, cane neyh?

duet aku ade 20lebeh, aku beli maxis 10 nak share ngan gf aku tapi maxis palat neyh lembab plak. aku beli dunhill20 n coklat kat 7e. yang kelakarnye time nak bayar ley plak duet aku x cukup singgit. nasib ade ejat kat luar. so aku pown paw si ejat haha!pastuh aku pinjam moto member aku (maklumlah org susah) then gi umah hf aku n letak coklat kat depan umah dia sebab aku da jam haha!

aku hilang mood nak melepak,aku pown x tau asal. duet tok makan da abes. so kena triple la saket dada,gastrik and migrain haha! bodoh punye JAZ! aku memurungkan diri dan bile da ok sket stlh dunhill 20 abes, baru aku pulang. sesampai jew kat umah aku nak termuntah. so sebelom kena tiaw ngan mak bapak aku baek aku tido. Pastuh aku tido la ape lagi haha! -N-

My promises!

dear fazlyana.
eventough the tears that falls are unexpected.
but i will promise to my self to be more strong in the future.
and i will promise that i will wait until ur wounds are fully healed.
i also promise that will never let u down.
i promise that to take care of u with all of my hearts.
im sorry 4 everythings that i've done.
maybe im suppose not to do that.
but i wanna let u know,that i do all of that because i love u soo much!

Sometimes...

Sometimes i hope that u at my place.
sometimes i hope that u can feel my feelings.
sometimes i hope i just can ignore all the problems.
sometimes i become useless with my own mistakes.
sometimes i hope my wounds will heal rapidly.
sometimes i wish that all of that is only a dreams.
sometimes i hope that i can understand u with all of my hearts.
sometimes i hope i can understand my own self too.
sometimes i hope that i can solves all the problems only by words.
sometimes i hope that all my words become true.
sometimes i hope that i can be more strong to face the faith.
But thats all is only a hope.

The memories!

Sorry 4 the things that i've done baby.
but this is me.
im use to be a non-stop talker.
but i think sometimes im gonna change that with my own reason.
because tonight im speechless.
i feel like a bird that lost in the middle of the sea.
my words just cant get out through my mouth.
i cant call for help from anybody.
because this is between me and u.
and i will try to avoid from include anybody in this earth from it.
even i need to stand until my last blood on this world.
i dunno what is happening to me.
im become dull and blank.
sometimes i feels like just wanna cry.
but i know cry wont solve anything.
i try to survive from all of the disaster than come to our relationship.
because i love u more than my self.
so i will avoid to hurts u and make u cry as long as i could.
because u are really precious to me.
u are my courage,
my spirits.
and my soul.

p/s: if u read this please listen to kci&jojo title crazy

Tears Dont Falls

Let's go!

With blood shot eyes, I watch you sleeping
The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
Would she hear me, if I called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk is in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me makes things better?

Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscious calls, too guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscience calls, too guilty to come home

The moments died, I hear no screaming
The visions left inside me are slowly fading
Would she hear me, if I called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk is in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me makes it better?

Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscious calls, too guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscience calls, too guilty to come home

This battered room I've seen before
The broken bones they heal no more, no more
With my last breath I'm choking
Will this ever end I'm hoping
My world is over one more time

Let's go!

Would she hear me, if I called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk is in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me makes it better?

Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscious calls, too guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscience calls, too guilty to come

Back!

Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscience calls, too guilty to come home

h1n1

What the fish!

aku dapat mc seminggu hahaha!

02/09 sampai 09/09!

tapi cuti yang x syok.

ni sume malasah babi yang meliar semenjak beberape bulan neyh.

kemak btol.

ni cine nye pasal la neyh.

x abes2 makan babi ngan ternak babi haha!

aku da kurus sebab masalah babi neyh.

3hari x ade selera nak makan.

demam selesema babi memang babi.

da la kena paksa makan ubat rasa cam taik hahaha!

nasib da sembuh dol.

aku idop seperti sediakala hahaha!

yang penting..

demam babi memang babi hahaha!

hepy besday sayang!

its ur birthday baby!
sayang u da 19 da.
u da tua hahaha!
my baby's besday :D

bermula dengan kek dan kengkawan kat norazila pada pukul 12 malam.
malam yang x dijangka la.
kata Nur Fazlyana Bt Ghazali.
penat jugak la kan nak plan besday tok chentaku sorang nie.
sebab dia amat teliti kowt. so kalau slack sket jew sure kantoi hahaha!
tapi tonite rancangan berjalan dengan jaya nye.
aku talipon kengkawan aku soh datang norazila.
perancangan bermula dari pada petang lagi.
yuya dib ngan payid merantau ke bandar mencari kek.
sementara aku ngan berusaha melengahkan masa tok x bagi chentaku sorang ni perasan hahaha!
kol 12 malam si faz marah ingat aku msg ngan pompuan lain.
tapi itu ade la plan tok mengelakkan dia pandang kebelakang haha!
agak2 dia da klimaks marah, kek pown sampai ahhaha!
kami menyanyikan lagu hepy besday beramai ramai.
x tau la dia terharu ke x.
tapi nampak macam ye la kan hahaha!
setel jew upacara makan kek. kami pown pulang buat agenda masing2.
(bf ape neyh x bagi present? buruk pangai!)

Hadiah? mana ade hahaha!
akum sajew jew wat tu supaya jadi tanda tanya hahaha!
keesokan harinye.
chentaku da nak plan gi makan kat chicken rice shop hehehe!
tapi dia jadi hang bile yuya berhentikan dekat permai inn.
pastuh dorang suh dia turun.
lagi la dia jam kat situ hahahaha!
akhirnye aku soh dia turun jugak baru dia turun ahhaha!
terkezot la si faz bile aku da book tok berbuka puasa berdua jew ngan dia haha!
walaupown x dapat meja yang aku nak.
tapi aku da cukup bersyukur la haha!
aku amek makanan banyak2 nak bagi faz makan.
aku suke tgok dia makan owh ahhaha!

memasing pown da kenyang.
ni nak upacara penutup la neyh kan hahaha!
aku pown x tau nape baby aku sorang neyh x pasan hadiah aku letak atas meja.
sebab aku ingat da kantoi da ade present di sebalik kertas reserved 2 hahaha!
then aku pown bagi la kat dia n soh dia bukak.
yup! its a necklace hehehe!
aku ingin mengganti semula necklace dia yang da ilang :Dyang kela

karnye bile nak pakaikan rantai 2.
aku fail dol ahhaha!
aku pown x tau cane ley fail nak pakaikan owh.
maybe aku nervous kot.
yela fazku amat comel malam tu, lagi2 ngan muka dia tersipu sipu :D
da setel sume ape lagi dol.
pulang daaa..